All Abaut 1st

Suddenly I remembered him, a figure that ever made me fall in love and make me cry, do not eat for a week. Do not think he's handsome, cool, rich, or thing that leads to perfect plus there on him. As I recall, he was black, tall, unfriendly, and seemed not care. His eye is sharp, his words very neat . His movement, so maintain decorum. Rarely said sweet for me. But that makes me wonder, his attitude really makes me impressed (perhaps more precisely is fascinated).

At that time, he spent time in Semarang. I'm in Kudus.

The first date he invited to watch "30 HARI MENCARI CINTA atau ADA APA DENGAN CINTA".  I forgot, it was long, it was 2001. A bit of chatting in Lambada cafe (now closed).

Then, everytime i go to Kudus, I always took the time to see the cafe. although in each corner decorated with cobwebs, but the memories are still very clear in my mind.

Walking with holding my hands , at that time, my hand was very small.

Silently exchanged glances when meeting a teenager. Smile sign shy to admit that we are in love. Hey he was a university student, I still use a blue skirt (junior high school).

Ridiculous .... memories for the sake of memories flashed. And the most memorable was when I was the final project of the school, to graduation, the night he set out from Semarang to Kudus to help me do the work.

Actually he is my first love.

He never said that I was not his first love, (I know, it is a lie when he said m his first love). But I was most dominate his lover. In fact, he called me "Little Fairy Angel" .. how not bloom this heart.
Hehe smile again ...

In 2006, I went to see him. At that moment I heard he had engaged. Hahaha hell out of me feels ... want cry, want laugh...

Until he was worried I could depression, then passing a sane size limit. He said he was forced to marry her. Hahaha old reasons.

Alright

Until the miracle appeared, 2009 in FB we met again, and more miraculous, he wanted me back to him... Too late really ya ....

has numbness and pain.

He was first of all.

First love, my1st kiz, the person who first made me heartbroken, the person who first made me can not eat and sleep, and the person who first made me weak.

He's not entirely evil and not fully he makes me sick.

One I also, when he needs a wife, I'm not ready for marriage.

One I, too, have not been able to fulfill what a man needs.

I was not aware, he is a grown man, not a boy teenager who just wants courtship

Ridiculous, every time I remember, I wanted to laugh, then I wonder, what make her better than me ..

He replied, his future wife can fill material, if physically superior to me. But for mental readiness, certainly when his future wife was more prepared than I was then only 17 years old.

Overnight in Nganjuk, frothy and bubbly he said sweet things to entertain my disappointment. Kudus to Blitar, which should 12hours, being 2 days, 2 nights. It's always reassuring words to me.

And he has never lied to me before .....


Amazement, when he invited me to compose a love again.

Why invite me back when in falling positions ??


Make me laugh, when his wife asked, he would reply that I was his past.

But if seduce, he said "Inok very meaningful for mas. Our future my dream"

Hahaha .. ... Ahmad S * Kresno is his name ,,,, until whenever will be myMAMAT,


His name leaves a bad impression on my heart, but the trail of sweet memories in the sense of dreams.



(All Abt my1st)