LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

Hi ladies, Nowadays, so many couples undergoing relationship with LDR. Live dating to the road is indeed very difficult. How come? We must believe in the words of a man who is much there. He could have an affair with his friend. That's why a lot of couples that can not be lasting in dating with LDR. LDR so scary, is not it? We just "have to" believe in him that much there. We're going to be afraid, he is tempted by another girl around. Not easy, indeed. And I'm here to agree with the opinion that the LDR is very likely to succeed passed.

This is not nonsense, ladies. All it took effort and hard work. Relationships with someone who are close was hard enough, moreover him that there is so far with us. I never experienced such a relationship, and we can maintain our love. 

Believe in him, not just the only one point. Many other things we have to do.

We must have a plan. Call it the MASTER PLAN. It will be the basic goal of our commitment. We must agree with him, to bring it together. Remind each other of our big goals. Indeed, to realize the dream, we sometimes have to sacrifice something we have. But many of us have to be patient, and wait for the right time.

Ladies, the silly things we often do is think about him all day. We make no concentration at work. Usually, it applies to ladies who obesesif. And I have a tendency to do that, though sometimes I realized that it was not true. We must believe, and avoid thinking he would be "naughty" with another girl around. We need to control our minds. I've been almost like a crazy person, just because he did not answer in a day. Without realizing it, it just makes him fear us. 

Nowadays technology is very advanced, Ladies. You can use whats app, BBM, Line, Skype, Viber and others.

Take the time to always give attention. Remember give ATTENTION, not STALKING.  

Talking to the heart, it is very difficult. Such as torture. But that we must live. By always hopes, all our plans with him will be realized. Assure him that we are the right choice for him. And for him to understand, we also need attention. We need it most, though not his chest to lean on, at least his voice and his face during a video call is enough to make us calm and sure that we and he LOVED EACH OTHER  

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

Obsessive-Compulsive disease characterized by obsessions and compulsions. Obsession is an idea, a fantasy or encouragement recurrent, unwanted and disturbing, which seems silly, odd or scary. Compulsion is the urge or compulsion to do something that would alleviate the discomfort associated with obsessions.

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, OCD is a condition in which an individual is unable to control of thoughts became an obsession that was not expected and repeated several times certain acts in order to control the mind is to lower the level of anxiety. Obsessive-compulsive disorder is an anxiety disorder in which the individual's life is dominated by repetatif thoughts (obsessions) that is followed by repeated acts (compulsions) to reduce anxiety.

Patients with this disorder may have sought to combat these disturbing thoughts that arise repeatedly but unable to resist the urge to act over and over to make sure everything is fine.

CAUSE

The cause is unknown. Obsessive-compulsive disorder is not related to a characteristic shape one's personality, in individuals who have the personality obsessive-compulsive disorder tend to take pride in accuracy, neatness and attention to the little things, contrary to the obsessive-compulsive disorder, individuals feel pressured by the emergence of behavior can not be controlled. They feel embarrassed when these behaviors questioned by those who see it as doing the job that repeatedly. They are trying desperately to get rid of the habit.

Causes Obsessive Compulsive are:

Genetic - (Descendants). Those who have a family member who has a history of illness is likely at risk of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).

Organic  Problems such as neurological problems occur section - a specific part of the brain is also a factor for OCD. Nerve disorders such as those caused by meningitis and encephalitis are also one of the causes of OCD.

Personality - Those who have an obsessive personality disorder is more likely to get OCD. The characteristics of those who have this personality is as outrageous concerned with aspects of hygiene, someone who is too obedient to the rules, talkative, hard work together and not easily succumb.

Past experience - past experience / past too easily mencorakkan way a person handles the problem of whom to show symptoms of OCD.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder closely related to a history of depression or anxiety before. Some symptoms of obsessive-compulsive patients often also shows

Conflict - Those who have this disorder usually face conflicts soul that comes from living matter. For example, the relationship between husband and wife, in the workplace, self-confidence.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder closely related to depression, or a history of previous anxiety. Some symptoms of obsessive-compulsive patients often also showed symptoms similar to depression. Obsessive behavior in depressed mothers tried many times or a desire to kill her baby.

INDIVIDUAL RISK

Individuals at risk for obsessive-compulsive disorder is;

Individuals who experienced problems in the family of a broken home, errors or loss of childhood. (This theory is still considered to be weak but can still be taken into account)

Neurobilogi factors may include damage to the frontal lobe, the basal ganglia and cingulum.

Individuals who have high stress intensity

A history of anxiety disorders

Depression

Individuals who experience sexual harassment

SYMPTOMS

Common obsessions can be anxiety about contamination, doubt, loss and assault. Sufferers feel compelled to perform rituals, namely repetitive actions, purposeful and intentional.

Most of the ritual can be seen directly, such as repeated hand washing or repeatedly checking the door to ensure that the door was locked. Other rituals are mental activities, such as counting or making repeated statements to eliminate the hazard.

Patients can be obsessed by all things and rituals are performed are not always logically associated with discomfort will be reduced if the patient runs the ritual. Patients who are concerned about pollution, discomfort is reduced if he put his hand into his pocket. Therefore, every obsession about contamination arise, he would repeatedly put his hand in his pocket.

Most people realize that his obsession does not reflect the real risks. They realize that the physical and mental perliku too much even tend odd.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder differs from disease psychosis, since the psychosis sufferer loses contact with reality. Patients fear of being humiliated so that they perform rituals in secret. Approximately one third of patients experience depression when his illness was diagnosed.

Symptoms are characterized by repetition (repetatif) thoughts and actions of at least 4 times to the compulsions of the day and lasts for 1 to 2 weeks later. Utam obsession-compulsive symptoms should meet the following criteria:

Behaviors and thoughts that arise are fully realized by individuals or based on impulse in itself. Individuals also realize that his behavior is not rational, but still made to reduce anxiety.

Some behaviors that appear realized by the individual and try to fight habits and thoughts of anxiety is hardest, but to no avail.

The thoughts and actions do not provide relief, a sense of satisfaction or pleasure, but rather is caused by excessive anxiety and reduce stress felt.

Obsessions and compulsions are repetitive nature constantly in several times each day.

CHARACTERISTICS obsessive compulsive

Symptoms of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is characterized by repetition of thoughts and actions at least 4 times to the compulsions of the day and lasts for 1 to 2 weeks later. The main obsession-compulsive symptoms should meet the following criteria:

Behaviors and thoughts that arise are fully realized by individuals or based on impulse in itself. Individuals also realize that his behavior is not rational, but still made to reduce anxiety.

Some behaviors that appear realized by individuals and tried to fight the habits and thoughts of anxiety is hardest, but to no avail.

The thoughts and actions do not provide relief, a sense of satisfaction or pleasure, but rather is caused by excessive anxiety and reduce stress felt.

Obsessions (thoughts) and compulsions (behaviors) of its repeated continuously in a couple of times each day.

Obsessions and compulsions causing the pressure inside the patient and spend time (more than one hour a day), or significantly interfere with a person's normal functioning, or social activities or relationships with others.

Sufferers feel compelled to perform rituals, namely repetitive actions such as hand washing and checking for a particular purpose.

VARIETY OF BEHAVIOR DISORDERS WHEN OFTEN HAPPENS:

Cleaning or washing hands

Check or check

Collate

Collect or hoard goods

Count or repeat thoughts that always appears (obsessive)

Fear of contamination disease

Fear of harming others

Fear of being wrong

Fear of being impolite

Need accuracy or symmetry

Confused or excessive doubts.

Repeating count many times (to worry about errors on the order of numbers)

Individuals who have obsessive-compulsive disorder sometimes have the mind intrusive without action repetatif clear but most patients showed compulsive behavior as an advanced form of negative thoughts before appearing repeatedly, such as fear infected with the bacteria, people with obsessive-compulsive disorder often wash hand (washer) and other common behaviors as above

Imperfect Angel

When we fall, and really fell, God always sends angels to help us stand up. Wipe away tears. Make us feel better. I remember, some time ago, you said I was an angel who make you feel better when you're bad.
And at that moment I also think you are the guardian angels. Every time, God always sends angels in our lives. Whether in any form. But we really do not know how to realize who the angel was.

2005-2007.
The worst year ever I get. But it seems God always gives bidders when I'm sick. A man, with all the foolishness, so take care of me like I was his daughter. Surprising how God divides sorrow and happiness. When I got home late at night, he picked me up at the end of the road. No matter at any time. All he knew was that I was so scared the roads are narrow and dark. During a fight with my boyfriend, he was willing to hear my story until I fell asleep. He is another person who thinks I'm his little daughter.
He also supported me when I'm falling. I had been a waiteress a small cafe in my town. Own cafe is not a friendly person. Until I can not stand it, I just cried. He , a man who assumed I was her daughter, asked me back to his house.
However, when I really had a good life, why did he go? He left before I could share  happy to him. He returns to God who has sent him.

Some time ago, someone assumed I was his angel. He said that he could smile, even when the worst. He always felt better because of me. And I also like to feel something similar.
We have a way of its own and very unique. So we forget that we have a limit of time. And when conscious, we're running out of time.

Same with the story in the movies, whether amateur film director, or a famous director. Their story has a hero who becomes a savior.
However, behind the goodness of our heroes, there will be episodes that must be replaced with another hero. That is, as the cycle of leaves. Dry leaves would fall to be replaced a new leaf.

No one is able to perfect. But we have to be better.

My Eid Fitr

There have been many articles about Idhul Fitr. Now, I still can not complate for understand the true meaning. All I know, Idhul Fitr is a time when all Muslims shake hands and forgive any errors which have occurred.
If likened to a computer, we reinstall, discard all existing viruses. Then empty the memory of all the files.

Takbir, floated from all corners. And we celebrate on the same day (again).
Different with time a few years ago.  group A celebrating today, then group B celebrate day after.
And the silly, I choose the earlier group celebrating it. I dont care which one of group.  Yes, I do think simple. I love my religion, but I want a comfortable and did not want to feel pressured.

When I was child, Eid is a very special day. Idhul fitri come, will come also new clothes, new shoes, new bag, and everything is new. Because we would meet with uncles, aunts, brothers, sisters, cousins, nieces, grandparents and everyone. And other silly of me, is, I can get a lot of money when Idhul fitri. I compete with cousin brother and sister, who's got the most money. Because according to our culture, if we r not married and still in school, we are get to money from older family.
But now, I'm try to understand, that Idhul fitri not just like that. I try to understand that, Idhul fitri is proof that Allah is very forgiving. Allah forgive all the sins and fault from human.
We human beings should also be able to forgive each other. Because we are human beings.  no matter of Indonesian, Indian, American, Chinesse, Japanesse, Korean, German, African, Italian, or wherever. We are same. We are human beings. Different is good and bad.
Shake hands, throw pride, envy, resentment and anger. Back to the pure heart, like a baby. Expect things to be better in the future.

To the most I love, forgive your daughter, who can not fully make you happy. To the most I remember when I woke up and there was always my dream, thank you, you're always helping me become better, i hope u happy always at there. To my friends, thank you for coloring myday mytime n mylife.
Hopefully we become a better person. Hopefully we get a happier life. Hopefuly we not make the same mistake.
♡♡♡I love you ♡♡♡

Before Last May

Dering telefonku membuatku tersenyum di pagi hari

Ringing of my phone, make me smile in the morning

Kau bercerita semalam kita bertemu dalam mimpi

You told me  we met in a dream last night

Entah mengapa aku merasakan hadirmu di sini

Somehow I feel you are present here

Tawa candamu menghibur saatku sendiri

Your jokes n your laugh, entertaining as I felt alone

Aku di sini dan kau di sana

I'm here and you're there

Hanya berjumpa via suara

Only met via voice

Namun ku slalu menunggu saat kita akan berjumpa

But I was always waiting when we will meet

Meski kau kini jauh di sana

Although you are now far away

Kita memandang langit yang sama

We look at the same sky

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati

Out of sight, but close at heart

Dering telefonku membuatku tersenyum di pagi hari

Ringing of my phone, make me smile in the morning

Tawa candamu menghibur saatku sendiri

Your jokes n your laugh, entertaining as I felt alone

Aku di sini dan kau di sana

I'm here and you're there

Hanya berjumpa via suara

Only met via voice

Namun ku slalu menunggu saat kita akan berjumpa

But I was always waiting when we will meet

Meski kau kini jauh di sana

Although you are now far away

Kita memandang langit yang sama

We look at the same sky

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati

Out of sight, but close at heart

Aku di sini dan kau di sana

I'm here and you're there

Hanya berjumpa via suara

Only met via voice

Namun ku slalu menunggu saat kita akan berjumpa

But I was always waiting when we will meet

Meski kau kini jauh di sana

Although you are now far away

Kita memandang langit yang sama

We look at the same sky

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati

Out of sight, but close at heart

Jarak dan waktu takkan berarti

Distance and time will not mean

Karena kau akan selalu di hati

Because you will always be in the hearts

Bagai detak jantung yang kubawa kemanapun kupergi

Like a heartbeat that I carried everywhere i go

Meski kau kini jauh di sana

Although you are now far away

Kita memandang langit yang sama

We look at the same sky

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati

Out of sight but close at heart

dekat di hati

close at heart

dekat di hati

close at heart

All Abaut 1st

Suddenly I remembered him, a figure that ever made me fall in love and make me cry, do not eat for a week. Do not think he's handsome, cool, rich, or thing that leads to perfect plus there on him. As I recall, he was black, tall, unfriendly, and seemed not care. His eye is sharp, his words very neat . His movement, so maintain decorum. Rarely said sweet for me. But that makes me wonder, his attitude really makes me impressed (perhaps more precisely is fascinated).

At that time, he spent time in Semarang. I'm in Kudus.

The first date he invited to watch "30 HARI MENCARI CINTA atau ADA APA DENGAN CINTA".  I forgot, it was long, it was 2001. A bit of chatting in Lambada cafe (now closed).

Then, everytime i go to Kudus, I always took the time to see the cafe. although in each corner decorated with cobwebs, but the memories are still very clear in my mind.

Walking with holding my hands , at that time, my hand was very small.

Silently exchanged glances when meeting a teenager. Smile sign shy to admit that we are in love. Hey he was a university student, I still use a blue skirt (junior high school).

Ridiculous .... memories for the sake of memories flashed. And the most memorable was when I was the final project of the school, to graduation, the night he set out from Semarang to Kudus to help me do the work.

Actually he is my first love.

He never said that I was not his first love, (I know, it is a lie when he said m his first love). But I was most dominate his lover. In fact, he called me "Little Fairy Angel" .. how not bloom this heart.
Hehe smile again ...

In 2006, I went to see him. At that moment I heard he had engaged. Hahaha hell out of me feels ... want cry, want laugh...

Until he was worried I could depression, then passing a sane size limit. He said he was forced to marry her. Hahaha old reasons.

Alright

Until the miracle appeared, 2009 in FB we met again, and more miraculous, he wanted me back to him... Too late really ya ....

has numbness and pain.

He was first of all.

First love, my1st kiz, the person who first made me heartbroken, the person who first made me can not eat and sleep, and the person who first made me weak.

He's not entirely evil and not fully he makes me sick.

One I also, when he needs a wife, I'm not ready for marriage.

One I, too, have not been able to fulfill what a man needs.

I was not aware, he is a grown man, not a boy teenager who just wants courtship

Ridiculous, every time I remember, I wanted to laugh, then I wonder, what make her better than me ..

He replied, his future wife can fill material, if physically superior to me. But for mental readiness, certainly when his future wife was more prepared than I was then only 17 years old.

Overnight in Nganjuk, frothy and bubbly he said sweet things to entertain my disappointment. Kudus to Blitar, which should 12hours, being 2 days, 2 nights. It's always reassuring words to me.

And he has never lied to me before .....


Amazement, when he invited me to compose a love again.

Why invite me back when in falling positions ??


Make me laugh, when his wife asked, he would reply that I was his past.

But if seduce, he said "Inok very meaningful for mas. Our future my dream"

Hahaha .. ... Ahmad S * Kresno is his name ,,,, until whenever will be myMAMAT,


His name leaves a bad impression on my heart, but the trail of sweet memories in the sense of dreams.



(All Abt my1st)

BUT ALWAYS

I see you in a very crowded a crossroads. Yes you also see me. But you just furrowed brow. You are not convinced by what you see. Your eyes blink few times. To convince yourself. And I waved my hand, but you just looked over to the right and to the left, see who replied, waving my hand.
Hey, you have not really aware, this is me. I just smiled at you. Then I left the place I stand. I go back to the hotel room is rather good. Think about what you're thinking.

On the second day,
I stand in the same place. Waiting for you passing a very crowded a crossroads. With your beloved motorcycle. You use a striped blue shirt that I do not like it. Then you glanced at me again. And you do not believe your eyes. You still think that it is just imagination.
I'm still smiling, looking at you. I do not expect more than a smile on your lips.
But this time you are not alone. There's someone behind you. But that someone just looked straight ahead. I'm not surprised, that my smile do not fade.
This time you do not stop. You run until I can not see you anymore.

This is the third day,
I am waiting for you here. Standing in a crowded crossroads. Two hours I'm here, and you have not passed. Waiting while drinking Masala Chai. I heard it was a special drink here. Sweet enough, even if only very little sugar. You and I same, not really like sweet. 

Almost I was tired, and the glass is almost empty. You have not been seen. And I take a mineral water from the my backpack.
 

I asked myself, "Do you recognize me? Then you avoid me?" , But I'm very sure that, you're not people who like that. I still believe, you will soon embrace me when you realized I was near you. But why do not immediately appear, like yesterday? Where are you? What are you doing? With whom? Why so long? I was almost tired.
I just imagine you recognize me. Then smile and say that you really miss me.

Feeling alone amid the crowd. Look to the right and to the left, but do not you come . In the crowd of people are speak a language which is not I understand. Little boy running to follow his parents, laughing with his sister and his cousin. Not handsome, but sweet, looking smart and polite.

I've spent 30 minutes after 2 hours it. Why did not like yesterday.

But I have always believed, that magic exists. And the miracle came. 

I believe it. When you say that, you're always there when I need you. 

You whispered that sentence, my ears. The most beautiful melodies.
Why so long for you to realize that I'm here? 

Always late.
And as always, you always said "yeah,"
But as always, I smile silly.
And as always, again, we are back kidding. Until moonlight comes.

A beautiful day. Not today, but time, minutes and seconds are beautiful.
Ya, as always, you're like a rainbow.

BUT ALWAYS , its just in my dream